A friend of mine, (she knows who she is), recently just up and moved a state away to a city she doesn't know. I think this is AWESOME and I'm living vicariously through her. Don't go telling me that I could do the same, ok? Sure I want to live in Connecticut more than a normal 26 year old should, but I can't just up and move somewhere (right now.) One, I'm in school and the only thing worse than taking a class is having to take it again because the credits don't transfer. When I started undergrad at MWC, I knew that even if I hated it, I wouldn't transfer because losing credits would rip a tiny part of my soul out.
While I realize it's a little weird, and perhaps hypocritical, since I am in school for education, I hate school. Don't get me wrong, though, because I love to learn new things and it's such a great arena for doing better than others* but I can't stand the structure and moments of monotony. Every August when my friends would start to anticipate the start of school and change from "Summer's great!" to "I'm kinda bored, when does school start?", I would hold onto my own mantra of "Anything is better than school." I never once looked forward to Back to School, and except for Seventeen magazine's August issue filled with fall fashion styles, I would not get excited for that time of year. Even now, as an adult with no children, I get irritated when the Back to School displays go up in mid July. Let the kids enjoy their summer! Don't remind them of college vs. wide-ruled paper and their need for the 64 box of crayons. Don't remind college kids that their summers of sleeping in are almost over and soon they'll be writing papers the night before they're due while simultaneously getting their alcohol tolerances back up. And really don't get me started on the "Summer Reading" display at Barnes and Noble** along with our notebook of summer reading lists from the area schools. It makes me sick, it really does. Only AP classes should have summer reading and I can assure you that not everyone buying off of that display table is in an AP class. If they were, I would hope they would be smart enough to find a book by Hemingway or Faulkner on their own. Going up to the Info desk and asking where to find "Crime and Punishment? ARE YOU SERIOUS? Hello, see that huge section titled 'Fiction'? Try there and leave me alone, I'm not here to hold your hand while you locate the classics.
Wow, I seriously digressed. Basically, there are two, no three things that keep me where I am:
1) School (see above)
2) My family (I never should have gotten tight with my sister;)
3) Money (lack of)
I wonder, had Ali (the sister) stayed in the Richmond area, if I would eventually have moved there to the mecca of rent prices where a 1 bedroom can be found for $500. I don't often let myself daydream about having my own space for what is, in comparison, pocket change to NOVA prices. I'm in serious limbo right now. In a state of wanting change but not being allowed it due to outside things. Soon soon soon, though. Just have to wait.
*Competitive! Who, me???
**I work there part-time, remember?